Post by Phoenix Roost on Nov 22, 2015 0:00:06 GMT
It's a funny thing. You'd think that a woman of Kotone's size would not be used to failure. I mean, a woman of Japanese descent sculpting her body into a monument to lifelong commitment and effort and defying conventions should be a woman used to getting what she wants.
Unfortunately, as is so often the case, looks can be deceiving.
"It's alright, Koto-chan," Sakiko had reassured her after the match. "You did what you wanted to do, and you had an excellent match."
Kotone nodded, but her eyes did not reflect the smile on her face.
Even though she knew she was a long shot, the sting of defeat was as potent as ever.
"This is the part where I prove whether or not I am as perseverent as I claimed I was."
Kotone is smiling a little more warmly as she stands in front of a Seishin backdrop. She is dressed in a navy blue combo of cropped t-shirt and yoga pants today, and her eyes, while intent, are not as sad as they were after her triple threat match.
"To build myself into the powerhouse I have, in spite of societal pressures and familial disapproval, certainly took courage and perseverance, but I never felt like I was particularly brave or resilient. It always felt like I was just doing what I wanted to do, and since I lived in a free country, no one could really do anything to stop me except me.
But no one would say that losing is what they want to do, and suddenly I find myself at the wrong end of a losing streak, despite my size and strength advantage. It's time to dig deep."
Kotone's smile takes on a somber tint as she shifts her weight a bit.
"This has been a blow to my self-esteem, but it's nothing I haven't conquered before. I wasn't always at the top of the pack when I was bodybuilding; in fact, very often I would remain in the same rankings month after month, year after year. Only when I had kept training, harder and longer than my peers, could I surpass them.
This business is no different. I expect to lose a lot more before it's over. Maybe it won't take as long to pay my dues in wrestling as it did in bodybuilding, or maybe it will take longer. But once I set my mind to something, I achieve it, and I have set my mind to being the best joshi in the world.
Jacqui made sure I would not become Champion of Seishin at the supershow, but it is only a matter of time before I get my chance and take full advantage of it. This just means I have to go through a few more Seishin joshi before I get there.
Sorry Kai. Only one of us can win, and I plan on making it me."
Unfortunately, as is so often the case, looks can be deceiving.
"It's alright, Koto-chan," Sakiko had reassured her after the match. "You did what you wanted to do, and you had an excellent match."
Kotone nodded, but her eyes did not reflect the smile on her face.
Even though she knew she was a long shot, the sting of defeat was as potent as ever.
"This is the part where I prove whether or not I am as perseverent as I claimed I was."
Kotone is smiling a little more warmly as she stands in front of a Seishin backdrop. She is dressed in a navy blue combo of cropped t-shirt and yoga pants today, and her eyes, while intent, are not as sad as they were after her triple threat match.
"To build myself into the powerhouse I have, in spite of societal pressures and familial disapproval, certainly took courage and perseverance, but I never felt like I was particularly brave or resilient. It always felt like I was just doing what I wanted to do, and since I lived in a free country, no one could really do anything to stop me except me.
But no one would say that losing is what they want to do, and suddenly I find myself at the wrong end of a losing streak, despite my size and strength advantage. It's time to dig deep."
Kotone's smile takes on a somber tint as she shifts her weight a bit.
"This has been a blow to my self-esteem, but it's nothing I haven't conquered before. I wasn't always at the top of the pack when I was bodybuilding; in fact, very often I would remain in the same rankings month after month, year after year. Only when I had kept training, harder and longer than my peers, could I surpass them.
This business is no different. I expect to lose a lot more before it's over. Maybe it won't take as long to pay my dues in wrestling as it did in bodybuilding, or maybe it will take longer. But once I set my mind to something, I achieve it, and I have set my mind to being the best joshi in the world.
Jacqui made sure I would not become Champion of Seishin at the supershow, but it is only a matter of time before I get my chance and take full advantage of it. This just means I have to go through a few more Seishin joshi before I get there.
Sorry Kai. Only one of us can win, and I plan on making it me."
